Laura E. James

Things I’ve No Wish To Recall.

 

I’m remembering things I’ve no wish to recall

Wondering if time does away with it all

Thinking I’ll sink with the weight of the haul

Willingly, I would go down.

 

The surfacing memories bring high tides of tears

I’m floundering around in an ocean of fear

Frightened, I’m killing the retrograde years

Submerging them until they drown.

 

I feed to the depths the thoughts making me cry

Hunting, they’re sharks; they’re silent and sly

Circling, then striking, they eat my insides

Inflicting unbearable pain

 

Recollections are triggered by words, songs or place

The sound of a laugh, a familiar phrase

A programme we watched and then we erased

All gone, and nothing remains.

 

It hurts to acknowledge the guilt and regret

But there were times in our lives I’ll never forget

The love and the laughter will heal my soul

I’m glad I’m remembering the things I recall.

 

Laura E. James

11.09.12